Ate a lot. Drank a lot. Gambled a lot. Met many old friends.
Chinese New Year is definitely one of the periods of time in the year during which I feel most sinful.
I can literally feel my tummy enlarging.
CNY is also when you catch up on the latest events in others' lives. I noticed that those who made fun of me when I was a fat boy had now become gigantic and fat themselves. I greeted them with a sadistic grin when they said hi.
Besides, just like what I'd anticipated, I still am not spared from the inevitable onslaught of questions on why I'm not having a girlfriend yet. Everyone is wondering and curious. And I have to come up with the same old lame excuses and fabricated information as far as my love life is concerned.
The hardest part is still my mom. I just feel very sorry.
Everyone seems to have found a boyfriend or girlfriend. My friends. My cousins. And if I'm not mistaken my biological brother, Derek, who's 8 years older than me, is going to get married in half a year's time.
For the first time in my life, I feel very incompetent being gay. Really. Extremely aware though I am of the need to be happy and optimistic, inferiority always succeeds in finding a way to enshroud my soul, no matter how hard I defend myself against it.
will it help if u'd hv a bf to show-off during family reunions? ;)
ReplyDeleteyes! it definitely would.
ReplyDeleteno asked me during cny! so that means ur family cares about u! =(
ReplyDeleteCIS! What's all this feelings of inferiority! It's normal for medical students, straight or gay, not to have found a partner. Moreover, finding meaningful relationships among gay men is more difficult than for the straights. You're still young, so concentrate on your studies and get a good job first!
ReplyDeleteekkon: Maybe that's cos you're obviously ghey? :P
Be happy. Enjoy your youth. :)
ReplyDeleteYeah... I guess most of us who are still single by the age of 22 - 25 will get questioned by the elderly as to why we don't have girlfriends. And I think this issue will continue so long as we remain single.
ReplyDeleteI got the exact same situation as you this year and I understand your feeling of incompetence. Sigh...
Anyway, happy cny and all the best in your studies.
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omg joe...didn't know you're an avid fan of DotA.....i forgot what's the name for the avatar that u used [maybe coz i hate using him....useless sometimes.... dragon and man right? lol]
ReplyDeleteanyway.....
i can diagnose you as having a classic "i'm tired of being a single, i wanna a boyfriend now!!!" syndrome....
so hard meh to find a guy that you like in your batch? or your senior or your junior?
idk. lotsa ppl [excluding me of course] find their love life outside their mad/med life.
so, maybe it's time to pay the pubs/gay clubs a try then? lol
p/s: next time, just bring someone as a fake bf la....make sure he's gorgeous though. that'll shut everyone up XD
aiyar dis is new age. 21st century deh. its normal to be single. u wana get married, make sure u got $. else later u got prbs later. its easy to get into marriage wagon. wat they say is easy. but its u who wud married and live a totally different life esp with some1 else everyday. think twice. nobody can force u. u can tell them off. marriage is not everyday bed of roses.
ReplyDeleteAlways tough showing up for CNY these days with everyone pelting us with questions :) Hang on, yeah! Just enjoy being with the relatives.
ReplyDeleteLol I'm never asked questions like this even during CNY. No one cares whether I have a gf or not :(. Perhaps looking at it from another way, people are merely concerned about you. :)
ReplyDelete@raeshad
hi there, dragon and man would probably be Dragon Knight, joe's avatar is another hero. :)
my mum asked who was it that i was talking to in the middle of the night when we were watching ah long pte ltd... and i said it was a he. her eyes wide open.
ReplyDelete"colleague lah!"
"oh not girlfriend ah?"
I think its more like a totally Chinese culture thing. Everytime you see a relative, its a question that you must ask;
ReplyDeleteDo you have a boy/girl friend?
When are you getting married?
When are you having children?
Its so typical chinese! That like when you go to a clinic to see the doctor and when someone you know sees you and they ask you "here to see the doctor?"