My relationship is not working

Alright. Maybe I lied. Actually, I don't think my relationship is working.

We've been arguing quite intensely with each other lately, apparently due to the lack of compatibility between us.

I remember how desperate I was to find love when I was single back then. Ironically, after having found a seemingly perfect boyfriend, I feel like going back to singlehood.


I can feel that something's not right about my relationship. I'm dragging it on with a lot pain and heartbreaks. If you were to ask me to picture the image of the guy I'd get married to, it's not his face I'd visualize.

Whenever we quarrel, I tend to have the burning desire to break up with him. Sadly, I never have the courage to bring this up to him. And I tell myself that it's okay, Things will be better. Or perhaps, I don't want him to be devastated. Although a break up with him will release me from the immense stress that this relationship has put on me, I know it'll deal a heavy blow to him.

But then, everything has a limit. 

I really hope things will get better.

I'm attached, finally

Am back to blogging again.

I guess the greatest change in my life since I last blogged is that I've got a boyfriend.

We have been together for about 6 months now.

My first relationship ever.

Unavoidably, there have been many ups and downs. Yet, I can confidently say that we're still doing good.

Looks like I ain't that bad when it comes to relationships. Gonna blog more about my relationship in time to come.

By the way, just got back from chilling out with a few friends in Hi-so Pub where the patronizers are mostly gay. Though it's just some obscure pub located in an old building opposite Pavillion, the ambience was great. It felt as though I'd got my gay social life back. Really awesome.

Today's learning point: I should learn to be less self-conscious and just enjoy life.