Taiwan?

There's going to be another elective posting in a year's time. We're encouraged to get attached to a hospital abroad. And many of my coursemates are already discussing where to go. And it's not surprising that some of that have even started to apply.

I've always wanted to do my elective posting in Australia. Probably Melbourne. First of all, I've not travelled to a country where the people are white and English is widely spoken. I thought it's awesome if I could spend a month there and do a little bit of sightseeing before returning. What's more, it's not that far from home and I have friends who're doing medicine there too.

The problem is, I can't get someone to accompany me. The idea of going somewhere I've never been to alone and grappling with every obstacle that comes my way on my own just freaks me out. Certainly, I'm not a person who can't stand on his own feet. But, seriously, I don't think I can do that alone.

Some of my coursemates said they coulnd't afford to do it overseas. Mind you, the electively posting is completely self-sponsored. Tai's godparents live in the US and he said he's probably going there. Most of my good friends are very enthusiastic about going to Taiwan. An option I didn't consider at all initially. They reasoned that they could converse with the patients in Mandarin and that'd save them a lot trouble i.e. staring blankly with jaws dropped at patients who mutter something unintelligible to them in an Australian accent. And I thought they're ridiculous.

Now, it seems that going to Taiwan is not that bad at all. At least, the food is great and I heard there're loads of cute guys on the streets.

Now, I really do think going to Taiwan is not bad at all.

Dreaming of him

I dreamt of him when I was taking my nap. It's my first time dreaming about him. So, I thought I should just write it here ( as a record).

It wasn't very clear. But, I know it's him. We're holding hands, browsing around in a mall, together with my other gay friends.

I guess he's under a lot of job tension lately, which explains the cold shoulder that I'm getting.

All of a sudden, I've come to realize that it's true when people say love is not only about two persons liking each other. It's more than that, isn't it? Whatever it is, it's definitely not easy. I'm trying my best to be understanding and accommodating.

I swam today. Saw the coach who taught me breaststroke when I was 12. He used to have a beautiful abdomen. Can't remember how many erections I'd had during my swimming class. Yet, now, those 6 packs have become obscured by a huge tummy.

External beauty is not permanent.

I passed

Well, I passed. What a relief!

Our results have not been released. We only got to know whether or not we passed. It's rumoured that only a few aced. Majority of us just managed to scrape through. I think I'm one of them. I did badly in the questions on biochemistry. I've never liked it. But, who cares? I passed. I hope there're still patients who want to see me in future knowing that I just scraped though, My heart goes out to the unfortunate few who didn't.

Last night was hot, especially in the car. We didn't make out, k? Just a little touching and hand-holding.

Me: There're people watching!

Him: So what? They're holding hands too.

I saw a pearl in the jewellery shop. Rm 80. The cheapest of all those put on display. Thought of buying it for my mom as Mother's Day gift but am wondering if it's authentic. I'm flying home tomorrow. I have a one-month break before 4th year begins.

Argh!! If only I were more financially capable...

It's over

Professional Exam 1 is just over.

It's nighmarish. Really.

Anatomy, physiology, biochemistry, microbiology, pathology, internal medicine, general surgery, obstestrics and gynaecology. These were the subjects within the scope. We're expected to know everything. The theoretical, practical and clinical aspect of everything (at undergraduate level).

I had 6 weeks to prepare for the exam. Yet, I only spent the last week doing so. Recalling the embarrassing moments I perspired profusely when the external examiners asked me simple things which I couldn't answer properly, I regret not making a serious effort to study.

All I did was selective reading. Studying things I felt were important. There was simply too much to revise.

Deep in my heart, I hope I can pass. God, please!

And I'll be watching a movie with Efkay tomorrow night. I plan to hold his hand during that. =)