Monday, February 28, 2011

Defeated

Meh! I wasn't really into him anyway. But, at least, I thought he was a potential boyfriend.

Everything seemed pretty fine until Frodo emerged out of nowhere and brilliantly intercepted all the vague and subtle hints I'd been sending to Ambrosius without my knowledge.

So, in the end, I was effortlessly exterminated. Like a soldier ambushed from behind and instantly shot to death. Painlessly.

I lost the game. To someone who looks prettier than me but has alopecia and is as tall as a hobbit.

Although my description of Frodo sounds a bit too pejorative with a mixture of jealousy and the smell of vengeance, I'm definitely not as vindictive as I might sound.

I was just filled with some sort of inexplicable desolation and animosity. Which I think is quite acceptable when someone you like chooses someone else instead of you. Maybe, I haven't garnered enough experiences in love to anticipate certain possibilities and to realize the importance of certain variables that will influence the outcome. And God must have been very compassionate to let me have a glimpse of the heartbreaks that usually accompany one thing in life that is never enough, which is love.

In future, if I ever fall for someone again, I will make my feelings clear and be assertive, which trumps shyly keeping all your feelings to yourself and not getting what you want in the end.

Lastly, I'd like to thank Lexxie for comforting me and telling me what I needed to hear. So sweet of him! :) And those mouth-watering biceps of his! Argh!

13 comments:

  1. yay for assertiveness! go for it.

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  2. Thank you for the pain, because I find out that I am not numb after all…..
    Thank you for the heartbreak, because I realized that I am still capable of loving someone…
    Thank you for making me feel unlovable, because I appreciate more my family and friends who make me feel that I am loved…
    Thank you for the rejection, because it opened my eyes to reality…
    Thank you for the hurt, because I learn to be strong…

    Thank you….
    Coz’ I realized my true worth…

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  3. I am afraid, when u fall in someone again, you won't be clear and assertive, love is blind...but there is nothing wrong. Move on and you are always the best! Glad to see now u blog again....

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  4. Crushes will come and go :) And I'm sure you'll fall again and again!

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  5. But being too assertive doesn't seem like a good idea as well.
    Once feelings are expressed, they cannot be taken back. I hav humiliated myself before and it doesn't feel good >.<

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  6. Think there's no right or wrong.

    Being assertive one way to go about it. Cuz every opportunity has a shelve life. But all the best! ;)

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  7. skysky, yala i always blog one lah. just that sometimes too busy n stressed.

    savante,yes i m so going to fall again and again hahaha

    J-boy,i have also had my share of being humiliated.

    Hot banker! how have u been !? :)

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  8. wat comes around goes around... heart crushed, then crush someone's heart.. these things are bound to happen i guess.. Like Mr.Anonymous says, it makes ur heart stronger.. so cheers!

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  9. yea yea...we should make our feelings clear...i also learned this in a bitter way

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  10. when your prince comes, he will make all the waiting worth it! :)

    *rooting for ya! [cheerleader mode!!!]

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  11. kidz, guess it does. thanks. :)

    ash, good for ya too.

    joshy, he'd better make it worth it. haha.

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  12. Well, i believe the best way to go always is this honest way. no games, no tricks. if you like someone, go for it. take chances and have no regrets.

    hope to see you in penang when you are back :)

    - dave penang

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